Ninety

Ninety is one of my most vulnerable works due to the tears and pain that went in to creating such a raw piece of writing. It is a look inside the most pained part of myself, in a way that my previous works have not captured.

“I knew it was time to go
To return to the place of hope
To return to who I was before you hurt me
I knew it was time to go
Because my heart no longer wanted to be caged by you
You changed my world
You altered my reality
And made me lock myself in a dream to escape it
And even then, you wouldn’t leave my thoughts
But I have to say goodbye now
I have to go
Because I can no longer keep myself in this quicksand, believing I will survive, but only sinking further
That is not where my mind aligns anymore
I want hope now
And I can’t find it in you”